Tuesday, November 18, 2008


The "fling everything at it" cycle was a spectacular failure. We got one good egg out of five, but the resulting embryo was slow-growing (did they manage to ICSI it with a duff sperm?) and we got a BFN. Oh . . . and high blood pressure and palpitations. So now I'm on beta blockers and freaked out about my health, as well as utterly miserable about the failed cycle. Plus, my theory that all this loss and subfertility was down to having bad eggs is now questionable - 1 in 5 normal eggs is the average for someone who's 40 - which is what I'll be in early February. So our fallback of donor eggs is now also questionable.

And tomorrow I return to work, where my closest work-friend just announced last week that she's pregnant. Joy abounds!

More details on the cycle from hell when I can bring myself to relive them . . .


Leslee said...

I'm sorry that your cycle failed and that you are facing health issues as well. I hope that you are able to get some explanation from the RE as to why this cycle failed and whether or not DE is in your future.


twondra said...

I found you through L&F. I'm soooo sorry sweetie. I know nothing anyone can say can help, but know that I'm thinking of you. ((((HUGS))))


DAVs said...

Thanks for stopping by my blog. It does help to know I'm not so alone. I'm sorry for what you're going through, too. None of this is fair. None of it.

Rebecca said...

I'm so, so sorry for your BFN. I was checking back occasionally and hoping to see a very different post.

I'm also sorry to hear about the high blood pressure and palpitations. That's always a scary thing to experience. When was your TSH and T4 tested? If it was tested before the cycle and the high bp and palps started after the cycle, I wouldn't necessarily dismiss thyroid as an issue. Thyroid levels can change very quickly, particularly if it's an auto-immune thyroid issue that is causing the problem. Mine went from hyper (0.092 TSH) to hypo (3.19 TSH, at a lab where 3.0 was the top of the normal limit) within 4 weeks.