Wednesday, June 1, 2011

Love

Lots of negative stuff to write about: contradictory feelings on motherhood, thoughts that come up about donor egg issues, changes in my body, sadness that we will probably have to let our frozen embryos go, guilt that I can't give my son a sibling, barriers that exist to being a working mum (& shock at how many of those barriers are put there by other working mums), pressure to be the first to move baby into its own room or the first to wean (while still breastfeeding, of course), feelings around miscarriage and infertility that linger, etc, etc.
But look at this smile - this smile makes it all float away.

5 comments:

Melissa N. said...

He is precious and his smile made me smile. I needed to smile, so thank you to your little one. :)

I know you want to give your son a sibling, but if you can't, he will be ok. I was an only child - not by choice, but because it took my parents 7 years to get me {they suffered 4 miscarriages and a full term stillborn} and then after I was born, there simply were no more children. It just never happened again. I was loved beyond belief, had a wonderful, happy childhood and while I sometimes wish I could have a sibling, my close friends and cousins are great stand-ins. Love your son, as you do, and he will be ok. It will all be ok.

null said...

He is absolutely one hundred percent beautiful and perfect!! I'm so glad you have that smile to get you through the rough spots. Thanks for the update!

MyTwoLines said...

Sheesh, that's me above as 'null'...was accidentally signed in with my DH's google account.

Bee Cee said...

Doesn't it just make it all float away?! Just beautiful. I'm a good listener....if I can help at all, please shout.

Lost in Space said...

I think that smile could get me through just about anything. Hope you are hanging in there with some of this tough stuff...